t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Thursday, January 08, 2004
lyrics::*
]]And I don't want the world to see me..
Cause I don't think that they'ld understand..
When everything's meant to be broken..
I just want you to know who I am..
=)) haven't been updating.. ha. i have no idea why.. maybe inconsitent blogging would do me some good really.. hmmx..
iits raining outside.. beautiful sight.. those raindrops are falling steadily.. i wonder if the heaven's crying for something.. or someone.. hmm..
been long since i last listened to certain songs while watching the rain fall ceaselessly.. the feeling's kinda.. bittersweet?... soothing... yet somewhat.. painful? ha.. i'm so going crazy.. and i don't know why?.. uh... *shrugs_
blahs.. i think i'm typing like someone.. oh well.. whatever it is! hahaha.. i have yet to watch my di xia tie.. my love actually.. ju-on2.. what other movies? my god.. i'm just gonna be wasting so much bukaroos on movies.. haha.. but i like watching movies... so what the heck? =P
lalalaaa.. haven't been listening to this song.. wall in your heart.. nice song. =)) hmm.. there's a wall.. in your heart.. that no one can break through.. and its cold.. and its dark.. and yoo don't have a clue.. but this wall.. it will fall.. if its the last thing i'll do.. i'll break through.. this wall in your heart.. wee.. =)
hmmm.. haha.. the rain was falling in.. and i totally liked the sight of that.. hmm.. the sensitive me is coming out soon.. woops.. i so don't like that.. i'll be so ultrasuperfuckingsensitive... and it sucks.. really.. big time. *nods.
i miss pl.. i miss wei.. i miss ally.. i miss char.. i miss fran.. i miss.. mich and mel.. lynn.. phy.. dan.. mel ong.. steph.. andre.. lyana.. fiza.. omg. i just suddenly miss everyone so so much? =\ sigh*
ahhh wells. i'm bored.. so i'm gonna be chasing them to watch crazy/beautiful with me soon.. heh.. by the way.. dear... nu er.. and pts are at my house.. wee... i think i look depressed.. and i'm gonna be depressed really soon.. but i don't know why?.. haha.. maybe some part of me knows.. but i've yet to figure out why..
things have been happening.. unexpected?.. maybe. okay.. maybe not MAYBE.. but.. TOTALLY? sigh* i never ever thought that i would feel like that.. never knew that it would hurt so bad.. yeah.. nice song eh? blahs.. sometimes obstacles are there.. for yoo to cross.. but yoo lack the courage.. so yoo run away from it.. but if yoo realise.. the more yoo run from it.. the worse the situation becomes?... and yoo'll start regretting.. regret.. what does regret really mean to yoo? i never really believed in regrets.. until something bad really happened.. and that feeling really sucks.. it just stabs your heart over and over again.. till yoo can't breathe.. and yoo just wanna erase that awful memory out forever.. cause everytime the thought pops out.. tears would threaten to fall from your eyes.. and yoo know that no matter how hard yoo control.. how badly yoo wanna be strong... yoo can't.. cause its only regrets.. that would be able to tear your shell apart.. the shell that yoo hide in.. the only source of protection that was available for yoo.. would be gone.. together with the tears... ha.. i sound sadistic? nah. just penning down my thoughts really..
i believe a certain someone would find that somewhat familiar.. cos i've told that person something similiar to this before.. hmm.. life is too short for regrets.. so don't give yourself the chance to regret something that yoo've yet to do.. really.. yoo wouldn't wanna go through that.. hmm.. ha.. but yoo know.. the sad fact is.. everyone has regrets.. cause its through regrets that people learn.. right?.. =)) that's what life is.. yoo know? haha.. life isn't a bed of roses..
hmm.. to live is to love... to love is to live. and that basically sums it all... doesn't it? =))
*+ butterflytakesflight_
;elysium.
3:47:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
